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Blast from the past...I still feel the same way!

2004-04-24 23:01:00

stupid kings! the kings played like donkey ass today! ugh. what an off game for them… i will stay a true blue fan until the end though! today was pretty much spent in solitude. i need to spend time alone, ya know? this week was so busy that i needed to regain my footing and re-center myself. that sounds very spiritual, doesn’t it? weird. anyway, i just never want to be one of those people who gets lonely or doesn’t like to be unaccompanied. don’t get me wrong, i love people and most of the time i’d rather spend time in the presence of my friends, but there’s something very lovely about not talking to people and just doing stuff on your own. i read. i cooked. i played my guitar. i watched teevee. i took a walk. good stuff. my birthday is quickly approaching! i’ve been talking big about having a karaoke partee, so i better come through with it this year! i hate planning things for myself. it seems so weird, but i just want people to come, be jolly and have fun. hopefully, people will show-up! i hope someone brings a pinata… i will be 26, which is so mid-twenties, which seems so adult, which makes me think… where did the time go??? did you know when “Friends” started, they were supposed to be 24? ack. that makes me feel old, but i wouldn’t trade being 19 again for anything! 19 sucked. being young is great, but wisdom and experience is better. i mean, i’m basically the same person as i have been my entire life, but i’m improving with every year, becoming smarter and bascially evolving as a person. that’s a very good feeling. i have a job i like, my friends are great and i love my family. i’m going places. slightly related to this topic, i’m tired of people my age who complain about their lives and do jack to ameliorate their problems! it’s so annoying. i’m also tired of people who have no goals or aspirations to achieve. all individuals have some inherent greatness about them, but it is only the extraordinary that take action to nurture it. it could be anything really. as for me… i dunno. i like what i’m doing right now, but i have this need to do something more with my life. i won’t be content my entire life being an editor. i think i’ve always realized from a young age that we, as people, are responsible for making a difference in this world. how this will manifest in my life, i’m not sure, but i’m not doing it now. but, i’m not worried. i’ll figure it out eventually.